Sunday, November 10, 2013

The State of Things

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It's been awhile, yeah? Over a month since I last posted. I'm not necessarily offering an apology, because I don't feel that I need to, but after a much-needed break from this blog and a much more relaxed usage of and outlook on social media, I'm ready to have a conversation; however one-sided it may be at this point.

The truth is, it's been so sporadic around here because I've been having a really hard time adjusting to my new surroundings. Kallie actually nailed the feeling on the head in this post, though our catalysts do differ a bit. I've been lonely and stressed and more homesick than I ever imagined (I really couldn't wait to leave). My skin has chosen this period in my mid-twenties rather than my high school years to betray me, and I seem to only be attracted to places of employment that come with crazy owners and verbal interactions that leave me in tears (I'm aware that it could just be the fact that I'm sort of fragile at the moment). My nonsensical, highly romanticized vision of the the South has quickly been stomped into the mud by several realities of what it is to live in this part of the country; realties that I'd love to discuss at some point but may get in the way of the direction I'm headed in just now. South Carolina, or, at least, the part of my life that has occurred here so far, has not been kind to me, which makes it very hard to get motivated to blog about how awesome life is. And that's what we're all supposed to blog about, right?*

All of this is to say that if blogging wouldn't have felt so disingenuous these past couple of months I would've done it. And things are beginning to improve around here! I've found a job that promotes family-like relationships amongst its employees, I've started to make a few friends, and I'm even beginning to meet some personal goals I've had for about a year (fitness and education related, if you're curious). 

I'm planning on blogging more regularly, though there's no schedule involved. I want to reflect my life as it truly is, and not as some picture I (for some reason) feel I need to paint for the world. That's not to say I'll never do another outfit post (god knows I love clothes too much for that), but rather that I'm going to do more living rather than writing about living, and I know you'll be ok with that.

That's all for right now. Love you, kittens!


*Heavy sarcasm.

11 comments:

  1. I'm sorry you've been having a rough time, and I'm glad things are starting to look up!

    Rachel

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  2. I am glad to hear you found employment you seem more optimistic about and am very sorry to hear that these past few months have been rough. It is very brave to be so candid to a bunch of people you only know of on the internet so- wow.

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  3. Ugh, I totally can relate to this having moved halfway across the country by myself. There were definitely times where, after the initial adventure wore off, it was just plain lonely! Totally don't blame you for taking a little blogging break to try to get yourself more settled in and happy, which is obviously the most important! Good luck with your new job!!

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  4. Moving super far away can be really hard. I've only ever live away from my family once, and I was only 4 hours away, and I found it incredibly difficult. It gets better though! Finding a job with good co-workers is a great way to make it easier :) Glad you've found that!
    www.thisanalogadventure.com

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  5. i'm sorry you've been a rough time. but i believe that you'll get through it ;)

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  6. Giiiirl I feel you. I've been living in Seattle for almost six months now and I miss my mom every day. I'm sorry to hear the south hasn't been meeting your expectations, but fingers crossed things are turning around for you now!

    xo marlen
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  7. I also moved to Seattle--my absolute dream city--in 2011, and the experience was completely different than expected. I was super depressed the first few months and was truly homesick. When I decided to toss my ego aside, I moved back to Arizona, found a man and job that I love, am engaged, and am seriously the happiest I've been. Even though I'd love to move again, the Seattle experience made me get to know myself a lot better. Sending you positive vibes, lady.

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  8. I just found your blog! Hopefully you keep posting more!
    xJAY

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  9. Welcome back! I usually blog when I feel like I have something to say as well. Except for the last 10 or so days, I've been doing this project called 15/15. But besides that, I blog whenever I want. You know, to make it real.

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  10. superb! Really nice post sis, excited to see more xx Peach

    http://momomoworld.blogspot.com

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