Tuesday, May 8, 2012

On Operating at Warp Speed

**This post is sort of diverting from where and what I was this blog to be, but I'm hoping to turn a new leaf of sorts IRL and in blogging by writing it; so here goes:

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This has been me lately. Sleepy, sure. but more than that, just run-down feeling-constantly. I'm sure it has something to do with the hustle of school, working two jobs, attempting to have a personal, social, and blogging life all at the same time, and a million other things each day, but honestly, I think the majority of my problem is that I'm not taking care of myself.

Typically, I'm an exceptionally healthy eater. But the last few weeks/month, I've gotten off the wagon in a bad way. Yesterday alone I had five chocolate chip cookies! (It's teacher appreciation week and one of my jobs is at a preschool...so...you do the math...). For me, that's a lot of junk. And my giving in to all my cravings is just making me feel tired and icky. When I eat whole foods, I feel much more like myself, not to mention more at peace and satisfied. 

Also, I've been almost solely focused on earning money for the new camera I'm planning on purchasing sometime in the near future, but have been neglecting a lot of other things that I may need. To sum this up, I think I'm moving too fast. I'm feeling haggard and worn, when I want to wake up with excitement each day. I'm constantly worried about the next couple of hours: where I need to be, what I need to be doing, how much money I'll be making, etc. It all needs to slow down. Granted, I still need to be making money, but I need to slow my body + brain down, and just relax. I need to do a little self pampering, and I need to remind myself that I'm a human being, not a machine. I need to de-stress and quit worrying/wishing/thinking my life away. I want to put more energy and thought into each thing I do, instead of spreading myself so thin. 

To achieve this, I'm going to do the following:

1. Get back on the whole foods train. Quit junk.
2. Take 1-2 days a week off from blogging.
3. Force myself to mentally slow down, and focus on what's in front of me.
4. Try my very best to do something active every day. It's hard when I work 13 hour days,
    but even a little youtube yoga would help, I think.
5. Buy myself a new pair of sandals. My other ones are falling apart.
6. Shave my legs. It's been a hot minute...don't judge.
7. Put more creativity and effort into my blog posts...even if that means they have to be
    less frequent or shorter. I really want to develop some inspiration.
8. Reinstate my nightly glass of wine : )
9. Breathe.
10. Make more friends.

I realize none of these are earth-shattering, but  small changes in day-to-day life are the ones that become permanent. What are some things you guys do to re-energize/re-start yourselves? I'd really love your input!

Thank you so much for reading. It really means a lot. Sorry, I know I say that all the time.
: )

EDIT: I'm also going to clean my house. Because, let's face it, that ish is making me crazy.


  1. I actually need to do everything single thing on your list! My 9 month old still hasn't slept through the night and sleep deprivation is making me a little cray cray :)
    Brooke @ what2wear, Monikabrooke.blogspot.com

    1. Oh my gosh, I'm sure! You definitely need some "me" time!
      Take a nap, girl! : )

  2. Take care of yourself and the rest will follow...and don't give us the I'm going to clean my house crap (in a nice way).We've been there,too.

    1. Great advice!
      Haha! I can't promise it'll happen right away, but it's for real making me a little nuts. I'm determined! : )

  3. I'm sure you'll get back on your healthy eating habits right away! I'm the same way with eating. It's good that you're aware of all these things and that you're going to tackle 'em right away, though. That's the first step! Good luck with it it. :)

    1. Thanks, lady! Encouragement from nice folks helps too : )

  4. I like your list - I think they are rules everyone should follow! Except the leg shaving.. that's only for when it's warm weather :p haha ;)

    xo Jennifer


  5. oh leah, I am on the exact same page as you. I run around all day, and it's stressing me out. I also have this idea of being this super healthy raw food eater, who always looks and dresses fabulous, and does yoga every morning, but the stressful days mean I neglect that and end up eating "vegan" junk food. I want to turn that around. I also want to make some more friends, I think it will make for a better summer. I know we always do that thing where we say we'll hang out, but never really do. If you want to, I think we should ACTUALLY start hanging out. It might be weird at first because we are both shy, but we need to do it!

    1. I know, I have the same idealistic picture of myself in my head, but it's been falling apart lately.
      And yes, let's! We shall overcome the shyness!

  6. I feel you! It's always good to take a step back and reevaluate the things we're doing and what we are spending our time on. I'd suggest making a list, but you already did so I think you're definitely on the right track! Good luck :)

    1. Thank you! My finals are done now, and I bought that pair of sandals! Feeling better already! : )

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    1. Thank you! : ) That's really nice to hear!

  8. 5 cookies, that's peanuts for me. but i'm slightly addicted to them so i guess i shouldn't be talking. but you really do sound like you have a lot on your plate, especially with two jobs! i don't know how you do it girl. i always feel if i put a face mask on and watch a chick flick a few pieces in my life soften out, so maybe try that one lazy Wednesday :) hope you start feeling more relaxed agian

    1. Oh, I need a face mask! My skin is lookin wack right now. Yeah, I just need to incorporate more "me" things into my days.
      Thanks girl!

  9. Leah I love your list. Its got so many wonderful things that will make you feel so much better! And honestly I'm really glad to see less blogging on there. Its so easy to put a lot of pressure on yourself when it comes to blogging, but the people who love what you're doing are going to be here no matter how often you post! And something that's really helped me stay in the moment is yoga, so I thought it was pretty cool that it was on your list too!

    Best of luck to you sweet lady!

    My Billie

    1. Oh my goodness. You are the sweetest.
      Yeah, I was totally putting way too much pressure on myself to churn out content all the time. But what you said is right: if people like what I've got, they'll read no matter how often I post. And yoga has really helped, surprisingly! I feel so at ease and peaceful : ).
      Seriously, thank you so much for the encouragement and reassurance. People like you are why I love the blogging community.


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